[Disclaimer: this is a personal website about my experience and own views of this disorder, with some general information. i.e. it does not constitute advice].
Depersonalization Disorder (DPD), or Depersonalization Derealization Disorder (DPRD), is a complex dissociative condition which is under-recognised and often misunderstood. It is an altered state of being which flattens and negates awareness and emotion, rendering one’s environment and own body as 'unreal' and as though one’s self is present in neither. It can be disabling, leaving you experientially divided from the world, society and time.
I am writing this with an emphasis on describing experiences and consequences of this subdued and disrupted state, this contrary, elusive, invisible disorder. I hope this is helpful to anyone trying to make sense of DPRD, either from within or without. After years of finding that DPRD is so little known, this is some of my writing to add to needed publicity re DPRD.
Although I have endured DPRD for many years, I am not fatalistically resigned to it. I expect to reverse DPRD. It is good there is more information for sufferers now and interest appearing in recent years, together with important psychological approaches. I will add links.
This private, horrible state of DPRD does not progress to 100% oblivion or to ‘losing your mind’. Please note that I do describe in detail what can be severe but that it is not hopeless. DPRD can (understandably) be alarming at first. Obviously, it is important to comprehend what it is. Yet it can take 7-12 years for a sufferer in the UK to gain a proper diagnosis.
[Depersonalisation symptoms can occur in some other psychiatric disorders and some neurological conditions. This website is about primary DPRD].
© James Aldridge, 2020, 2021.